by Emma Greenwood, Gold Coast Bulletin
RUGBY LEAGUE: Former Gold Coast Titans co-captain Kevin Proctor has vowed to everything he can to earn back the respect of the people he let down with his recent drug ban.
Proctor had not spoken publicly since he and former New Zealand captain Jesse Bromwich were caught on CCTV in Canberra allegedly snorting cocaine after going on a bender following the Anzac Test last month.
Proctor stood down voluntarily from the Gold Coast captaincy he shared with Ryan James and was banned for four matches by the club as well as being punted from the Kiwis' team for the World Cup later this year.
The second-rower returned to action on Friday night in the Titans' loss to South Sydney but said he still owed the club plenty.
"I owe them a lot, I've got to earn everyone's respect back, I guess,” Proctor said.
"I let a lot of people down, including my teammates, the club, my country, the NRL and most of all, my family.
"Once I start earning everyone's respect back and getting back to doing what I love, I'll move on from this.”
Proctor, who only joined the Titans this season and was sidelined with knee and shoulder injuries before his club-imposed suspension, said his time on the sidelines had been tough.
"It was hard. It was a tough couple of weeks but I've been working with the welfare team at the Titans, Smithy (Peter Smith) and Jen Cross ... and they've been really good for me,” he said.
"I've been doing some work with the Salvation Army as well and doing some things for others just makes you feel a lot better doing things for other people.
"Especially that first couple of weeks (it was difficult) but the club's been behind me and I've been working with Peter Smith and Jen Cross, the welfare people at the club and they've been really good for me and ... getting my personal life back on track.”
It's not only the club that Proctor has let down, with the 28-year-old most disappointed his actions reflect poorly on his family.
"I need to be a better role model to my kids and that's why I'm working really hard to put all this behind me and just get back to playing,” he said.
While James hinted Proctor wanted to win back his official leadership position, the man himself said it was not a priority.
"That's not really in my thought process at the moment, I just want to get back out on the field and lead with my actions and put all that stuff behind me,” he said.